Its sad. So, so sad that it had to stop being fun. I wont pretend like I hadnt suspected it for a while. Its so, so sad. I cant get over how sad it is. What's even more heartbreaking is the pathetic resolve to get on with it. To find pathetic ways of holding on to what was. It was glorious though while it lasted. No? Actually I'm not sure. Maybe the time warranted it. Now that the time has passed we see things for what they really are. It's a little exhausting to have a conversation now. Like an uphill climb without a summit. Does that make any sense? I really do think its sad.

I do hope things work out for you guys though. I just didnt realise how different we were. That's not to say that apples and oranges cant stay in the same basket. But. You know how it is.

The pretence will inevitably continue. You know it will. There will be the odd texts and random bonding. I do want to know when it actually happened. Around what time did we start slipping out of each others lives? What we have now looks like a badly morphed image. Do you know how sad that is? I think its really sad.