Why you shouldn't have your mom, colleagues, older relatives on your FB friendlist...

The reasons are many and all highly obvious: a) Privacy, b) protecting their innocent ignorance of your ahem.. indiscretions, c) privacy.. yada yada yada and so on and so forth

Today I was in a particularly ranty mood and came up with a singularly profound question 'what happens after the s*** hits the roof? Does it come back down and fall all over you' and promptly posted it as my Fb status message. This was followed by a couple of random comments from cousin C and nephew G. And then, a more concerned inquiry from my mother about what was bothering me. Now, dont get me wrong...I know its a public forum and if I post arbit messages, they will be commented on. Also, my mother's comment was no different from cousin C's. But... But... but... you clearly see what's wrong in all of this, right?

I ended up deleting the post.

See, the problem is I have a lot of older relatives, colleagues on Fb whose friend requests I had to accept to avoid being rude. But now, I need to somehow block them to protect my privacy. All my photos are 'Me only' but I also need some kind of setting to make sure they cant read status messages and the like. Any suggestions?

Anyway, coming to the reason behind the desire to rant...

Krum and I hit an all time low recently. Wont bore you with details but suffice it to say that things were pretty fucked up these last few weeks and him being on the other side of the continent, isn't helping.

I felt alone and angry and confused and was fighting with all kinds of feelings and forcing myself not to have a complete breakdown. In all this, I truly felt the distance between us. It was not just the physical distance, but somehow extended to a kind of emotional disconnect where it became difficult to let him know what was going on in my mind. There were times when I needed him desperately. To have him hold me, talk to me, distract me, just be there next to me. For several reasons, none of this happened. I wont blame him for all of it but to say that I dont blame him at all will be lying. I needed him to make that effort. I know I did.

I'm in a funny sort of place right now. Its no longer just anger or ego like it used to be when we initially started seeing each other. That somehow scares me.

Every relationship has its share of compromises but where do you draw the line?

There's just a certain point upto which you can overlook things to avoid confrontation. You can choose to ignore certain things but surely that must have a maximum point. Like a credit card. You can keep on piling on the credit but once you've maxed out..that's pretty much it as far as the card's concerned. Does this analogy make sense?

I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Also, I'm tired to distracting myself.

I think I'll go bake a cake.